It’s Sunday again and I’m headed back home on the train. Studying isn’t getting any easier and with the pressure going up at work, it’s taking more of a tool on the body which leaves less time for study. I was totally drained Saturday morning and although I meant to begin studying at 8 or 9am, I began somewhere around 12pm. I studied for and hour and took a walk hour off and then studied for another hour. I kept this pace up until 7pm, took an hour off, and then went at it for another hour. Even at this pace, I didn’t finish all of my homework even though I had logged another eight hours during the week.
I woke this morning feeling horrible about where I was with regard to study and about my current work situation. Back in November, there was a 15% raise and another 2.2% raise a few weeks back but the pressure has gone up and the workload has increased. Even though I know it’s not the case, I feel like I’m not pulling my weight and at any moment, I’m going to be found out and they’ll ask me to leave.